Feb. 13th, 2011

Im invited to MALAWI! June 14-16 Staging and June 16-Aug 25 is PST and Aug 25-Aug 22 2013 is my dates of service!!! :)

Feb. 7th, 2011


Feb. 5th, 2011

ive had this journal for ages and usually, i forget about it. then something triggers and i remember and post something. something random, something funny.
however, im glad that i have documented my peace corps experience for myself. it will be interesting someday. i will likely get a blogger or blogspot because they are easier to post from in africa (or so ive heard).

dear peace corps placement officer,
please send me an invite. it's been a year for me now, please please please!!!

Peace Corps Timeline updated on Jan. 22

Application Started: Late February 2010
Application Submitted: March 2nd, 2010
Recommendations Submitted: Online submissions on March 2nd, 3rd, 27th and mailed on the 20th
Legally Cleared: Unsure of date, but before my nomination
Interview: April 6th, 2010
Nomination: June 1st, 2010 Sub-Saharan Africa Secondary TEFL leaving June 2011!
Medical Kit Sent: June 7th, 2010
Medical Kit Recieved: June 14th, 2010
Medical Kit Submitted: August 3rd, 2010
Medical Kit Recieved by PC: August 25th, 2010
Dentally cleared: August 25th, 2010
Medically Cleared: October 15, 2010
Contact from Placement Assistant: October 20, 2010 (requesting new resume/updated and my college transcript)
Qualified for Placement!: January 21, 2011

I am in the final leg of this long pre-service journey. Now, waiting is not weird, and my patience is sky-high. I talked to my PO (placement officer) yesterday and she emailed me back stating that I am qualified and she is looking at 2 programs for me. My original program is Secondary English teaching with an emphasis on literature. The other option is a primary school position with more emphasis on community development. I stated that I would rather have her decide and I think that that is the best thing for me. Even if I have to wait a few more weeks to get an invite.

Jan. 3rd, 2011

mon. jan. 3rd 2010.
alrighht. new year was lovely. martin house with jess shelbs and mikey. good times. got into the living room at 2 and cheered and then went back to chat more. lovely night.
peace corps, it is your time baby. i am awaiting my call or invitation. either is fine. a random toolkit update would be lovely.
my fingers have been crossed because they said january, so its january so im ready to go! :)
patience is lacking.

job issues today. frustrating, but oh well. i have a job until i leave and that is what matters, right?

Dec. 13th, 2010

i have my ticket to london, and my ticket to the netherlands.
i have my ticket to brussels, and i will leave in 1.5 hours.
i am so incredibly happy.
doug and i are good too.

eurotrip begins today!

as for the peace corps. if i have an invitation, wonderful. i hope i come home to one.
but if i dont, no big deal.

Dec. 8th, 2010

i have spent the last few days thinking to death whether i want to move out and grow up, or join the peace corps.

its a decision. a big one.
one that determines the next six months for the least. which may be a short amount of time to most, but i want to live every moment.

ive decided that waiting for the peace corps is what i should do.
moving out means giving up my dream of going to asia or africa or e.europe or wherever they send me. yes, i can go on my own. yes, i can move to one of those places. yes, i can be an au pair or teach english. but none of those options gives me the huuuge benefits being an RPCV does.
i want to move out and in with brooke. it would be great. id have my own place. and i could decorate it cute and do it up.
it would be a blast. but i have to give up the peace corps to do that. and i dont think i am ready to do that.

waiting is killer. it really is. i am impatient. i cant stop thinking about the peace corps. i cant. i dream about it. i need to see this out.

a BIG part of the decision that makes it so difficult is doug. its always doug. he is supportive. i said do you think i should do it. he said yeah, its an experience that you wont get otherwise. i said what if i dont like it. he laughed and said youll love it. that man has my heart. i love him more than words could express. i wont ever find another doug. but i can take comfort in that if we are really meant to be, when i come home, he will be there. he will write me letters or emails. he will come visit if he can. he will probably eat holiday meals with my family and then brag to me. jokingly but seriously asking me to come home. like he wants me to, but wont be mad and will understand if i dont. his way to tell me he misses me.

its so hard to say okay, im going to join the peace corps when it means 2 years with sparse doug in my life. and by hard, i mean i cant even think about that part yet because its too sad to think about.
and its hard to say okay im going to join the peace corps when it means that i put everything else on hold for the 50-50 chance that i will go. i dont know what i would do if i didnt get invited. i think id break a little bit inside.
and its hard to say okay im going to join the peace corps when it means i am giving up my life, my family, my friends, english books, and new books. i wont have those things. i will bring what i can (in regards to things, and books) and pray that family and friends visit a LOT and that they bring me new books (though less important than them coming). i will have to rely on me, and ive never really done that. ive never had to. mom and daddy have always been my backup. my safety net. wherever i go, i wont have that. i will have to rely on me and my own faith. i will have to learn to trust myself.

the more i write, the more i recognize that this isnt just something i want to do, but something i NEED to do. i need to learn to trust myself, and rely on myself. when the going has gotten tough before, daddy and mom bailed me out. when mom or dad wasnt there, doug was. or mary, or brooke, or jessica. i have never been truly self-sufficient. this doesnt mean that my family is useless or unimportant. just that, i need to be what they are to me, to myself.


Dec. 2nd, 2010

as of late, nothing to report on the peace corps front. :(

i will be calling my placement officer later today.


EDIT: talked to placement. my file wont even be looked at until january. :(

Nov. 26th, 2010

being patient is hard.

today was thanksgiving and this year more than before, i am grateful for my family.
my mom, dad, brothers and future sister (less than 24 hours :)) are wonderful kind generous and selfless people.
i am blessed to have so many good people in my family alone. not to mention my extended family.
and doug, oh doug.

i am waiting. albeit completely impatiently, but im trying.
i am hoping for an invite in the next five days, but not holding my breath.
if my dream doesnt come, its okay. ill get to thailand eventually.
and no matter what the peace corps offers, im accepting.
even if its panama.
pleasepleasepleaseeee, placement, invite me SOOON!


15 days - Thailand,
my first choice that the deadline is coming up on. if i dont hear in 15 days, no thailand for me. :(
hopefully i will just hear something SOON.
its so frustrating having to decide my future when the next two years are potentially in the air.



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